Visions of Paradise p.1-2

I wait here as I survey the land spreading out before me. I begin at a place within time and space from which many roads have been made. Starting as hints like when a wild animal leaves its trail through long green grass, then as those who see the signs follow, it begins to form a path. Then, when the path is traveled upon by many seeking to find their way through this land, it becomes a road. Some roads are wide where many have walked, expanding the original path from its humble beginnings. they receive honors of sorts, being paved and made smooth for easy travel. The twists and turns are rounded out, and signs are placed that advise the proper speed for the safest and most enjoyable experience for the traveler. Bridges are built that span over the valleys and rivers, safe and sturdy bridges that leave little room for fear of this land. Bridges whose guard walls are so high that when the traveler follows the guidelines of the road it is impossible to see much beyond what is straight in front of them. One can almost think that they are not passing over thousand foot drops, that the land is level, and that there are not treacherous rapids below churning the water into whirlpools that could drown, or smash against rocks that could crush. These wide roads lead one passed the five mountains to the land beyond by the straightest and safest route. However, the traveler is left with little experience of the lands they pass through and little idea of the beauty and danger they possess.

There are other ways through this land that were not made with the idea of safety and comfort, ways that are not wide, paved, smooth and straight. These ways follow the hints and weave themselves intimately in the land they navigate bringing the traveler into the depths as well as the heights. Full of hills and valleys, full of drop-offs and cliffs, with sharp stones that scrape, and gnarled roots that trip. These ways bring one to bridges built much different than those of the wide roads. Bridges that creak in the wind, filled with gaping holes between their wooden planks. It gives one the idea that the bridges want you to see how high you are and how far you can fall and what awaits you below. Dangers are not bypassed and trials are not evaded. Yet these ways lead also to beauty unmatched and glory unveiled. Much like a rose with its thorns or rather a fruit tree with its serpent. These ways encounter mysteries revealing visions of splendor leaving the traveler changed, yet still moving but caught up in a moment of eternity. Ultimately, they were formed by a different understanding of travel; a different understanding of safety; a different understanding of faith. It is not the wideness of the road that brings comfort, nor the sturdiness of the bridge. It is not the smooth level ground that builds confidence, nor the lack of twists and turns. It is not the absence of fear that builds faith, nor is it the avoidance of troubles that brings peace. But it is faith in the One who provided the way that gives life, not faith in the road itself, and this is the door.

Visions of Paradise p. 1-2
by Brian Carter

The Power of God > A Fist to the Face

Sometime during my Sophomore year in High School, I felt lead to begin reading my Bible during the 15 min. break we had between our classes. I opened my Bible to Psalm 1, one of my favorite passages, and began reading with my Bible hidden in my locker. The words I read went right from my eyes out of my head. It was like I couldn’t understand what I was reading. I thought this was really odd but kept on anyway. I must have read that Psalm 5-7 times before it finally started making sense. I began to pray that I would be the kind of person who was like the tree planted by streams of water.

The next day, instead of hiding what I was reading in my locker, I sat down and had it out on my lap. A friend of mine who was also a believer saw what I was doing and asked if he could join me. The need I felt to connect with God at school was felt by more than just the two of us it seemed, for many students began to come during their break to join us for Scripture reading and prayer. It was a blessing that was soon to lead to practically a church planting experience. There were so many of us that we blocked the hallway and eventually had to move because we were a fire hazard.

During one such time of prayer and Scripture reading, while we were still in the hallway, we faced opposition. A group of guys from the football team began mocking us, calling us names, and shouting things about “separation of church and state”. It took me off guard, but I understood what was going on. I looked over at a friend of mine and I took off my glasses. Now understand, I was in High School, and fighting was one of those things that came with the territory, and I wasn’t the most mature person in the world. My friend, who wasn’t either, nodded at me and we both stood up while the rest were reading the Scripture for that day doing what I should have done- ignore the mockers.

At the time, I knew the two of us couldn’t take out the group of 6 football players, but I was also full of stories of David and Goliath, Gideon, etc. And as we walked up to the group, right before we were in confrontation distance, I was turned to my left as if I was on some kind of invisible track and didn’t have a choice. I looked up and saw a friend of mine that I had been attempting to tell about Jesus.

This guy was probably one of the roughest guys in High School. Adopted/fostered by a caring family, he was taking the path of his birth parents and was headed to doing jail time. He heard the guys shouting things behind me which was becoming increasingly aggressive and offensive. It was one of those times when you think, “O now this is going to get interesting.” My rough friend didn’t have the governor that most of us do and could probably have taken on all 6 sending someone to the hospital.

Now with him at my side, my other friend and I turned around to face them. When my rough friend heard them cussing at me, that was all he needed to hear. I don’t think I’ve ever heard so many cuss words in one sentence before that actually almost made sense, and he shouted them out for all to hear. The intensity just went to the next level. The surrounding students knew this was going to get epic so they formed the ring around all 9 of us. They gathered so thick, no teacher was ever going to get near in time.

Then as I should’ve been getting ready to charge, something happened that I’ll never forget, I felt an incredible calm wash over me. The rough kid was standing next to me, his face contorted in rage, and my other friend was next to him looking at me for the signal. I remember the insults the 6 were saying hitting something before they even got to me and I watched/felt them slide down to the ground. It was amazing, a Matrix bullet experience 5 years or so before the movie came out. I looked at the 6 then at my friends and was kind of puzzled that I wasn’t getting this party started. But the peace was persistent so I looked again at the 6, walked up to the biggest one (my head was his chest height) and asked a question in a calm voice.

“What is your problem?”

“Separation of Church and State!” said one of the 6.

“We’re just reading the Bible and praying, we’re not doing anything against you,” I responded.

Meanwhile, my rough friend was about to take up on the moment that I let slip by. I placed my hand on his shoulder and he stopped. It was at this time, another curious thing happened. The 6 all had their eyes cast on the floor. Before anything else happened a teacher broke through the ring shouting, “Break it up! Break it up!” And it was over.

The next day, I saw the big guy I had talked to. I walked up to him and he immediately apologized for what happened and he even mentioned how he honestly respected what we were doing. It was so surreal. This was the time the power of God became greater to me than a fist to the face. There is no way a fight would have yielded such a powerful outcome. I remember realizing that with His power, hearts are changed. The most I could get out of a good hit is a bloody nose or a black eye, but nothing near to what He did and can do.

About my 2nd year in college, I heard they were still meeting there for prayer and Scripture reading.

-Brian Carter

Saturday of Silence

This Saturday of silence
They’ve seen so much, things no one has ever seen before
They were called, appointed, given a purpose so much greater than they had before
He once called them to be fishers of men
Do they dare to grab their nets and go back to fishing for fish?
Is it all over, is it really done?
What was it all for anyway for it to be ended in such a way?
This Saturday of silence
As still as the grave…

They abandoned Him
They couldn’t sleep that night
Reliving each moment, remembering His eyes
Haunted by their betrayal, cursing their cowardice
If only they would have said something, done something,
But they tried! He wouldn’t let them, He seemed willing to go
Did He know what they would do to Him?
Did any of them know?
How did any of this happen?
So many questions, but one thing they did know
They abandoned Him

Maybe they can redeem themselves
Turn themselves in to receive the punishment given
If that was His fate, it should be theirs as well
They believed in Him and the teachings He did tell
Like sheep, they should follow their Shepherd even through hell
But no, it seemed fear had them gripped
Scattered they were on this silent Saturday
Their world had been flipped on them and then ripped from them
No, there would be no redemption on this day, no, not yet

This Saturday of silence
We want to push past
We don’t even want to consider the desperation
Or fill our minds with such contemplation
We move on as if it didn’t happen
And if thoughts come of His followers on this day
We chase them away, we chase them away
But if and when we do, I believe we miss something
Something that can grant us such strength and power this world cannot contain
The same strength and power that carried Jesus through
All that He went through before
This Saturday of silence

Noah saw it, Abraham did too, Joseph, Moses, Gideon, David
What about me and you?
Elijah, Daniel, and as the chapter in Hebrews goes on to say,
“The world was not worthy of them.”
And there is “something better for us”
Yes, we know what’s beyond this day
They didn’t, each with their own Saturday of silence
But they carried on
And we are called to run
So let’s remember this day and remember it well
For its through such days that paves the way
For the advancement of His Kingdom
And this Kingdom we will receive
Glory, Hallelujah, continue on brothers and sisters
Brighter days are coming!
Victory is ours!

-Brian Carter

The Bitter Dark, The Coming Light

So let us be like the birds who sing amidst the Darkness
Let us carry their song till the coming of the Day
For it is His love that lifts our hearts to praise
As it is His power that lifts the sun to blaze.

And yet amidst this dark there is much to suffer
As Night seems to rule this present hour

Great pain and loss are our closest companions
Doubt and regret are our right and left hands
They seem to walk with us shadowing the Way
Stealing our joy and turning it to weeping
Stealing our breath from the song we’re to sing
Oh LORD we await the coming of Your Day

The Abyss cries out in the lack of Your presence
The shadows condemn us and we begin to fade

Tripping and stumbling trading walking for crawling
Wishing to be running so tired of falling

We remember O LORD when our legs were strong
Marching with the saints amidst Your mighty throng
We remember O LORD and it brings bitterness
Looking at now while we’re in the thick of this

Remind us O LORD of the strength that comes from You
Give us this strength for we long for what is true

We are laid low by the lives we have lived
And sometimes it wasn’t us but the things this world did
Sometimes O LORD we feel like Job
Abandoned by You and left alone in the cold

These waters they continue to rise
Above our chins they seek our demise

If we can’t turn to You where else do we go?
No one else has power like You
Not in Heaven, Earth, or Below

And then we hear them like distant stars in the sky
Little voices singing like the angels on high

Their voices gather into a chorus
And we see Light coming up before us

It begins as a glow awestruck we wait
Then it begins to grow and the Light becomes too great
The sky is filled with red like the blood that was shed
Behold! The waters around us recede and the Darkness has fled

The colors dazzle our eyes
and the warmth brings joy to our souls
We forget the days of our weeping
We leave behind those days of old
But we remember those little voices
that sang amidst the cold
Giving birth to the hope in our hearts
the coming of Christ foretold.

So let us be like the birds who sing amidst the Darkness
Let us carry their song till the coming of the Day
For it is His love that lifts our hearts to praise
As it is His power that lifts the sun to blaze.

-Brian Carter

Reading the Gospels

Been reading the Gospels to my kids as they fall asleep and a verse, one that hits me whenever I read it but forget about it when I’m done, hit me again tonight and I want to make note of it. Mark 5:17-18

“Then the people began to plead with Jesus to leave their region. As Jesus was getting into the boat, the man who had been demon-possessed begged to go with him.”

Two kinds of begging back to back. One for Him to leave, one to go with Him. Books could be written and probably have been of why the first group would want Him to leave, and common sense explains the latter. But to me, its Jesus’ response that smacks me because its a bit opposite of what I’d expect. He actually fulfills the first request but denies the second. Huh?

Could it be that Jesus knew the Garasene demoniac, I’ll call him Steve, would have more success than the Son of God in that area? That’s just weird to me. But it makes me think, who has God put in my life that only I can reach, only my story could have the effect needed to bring them to Jesus. If even He Himself were here, it wouldn’t be enough to open the door.

But He gives us that honor and He waits inside, arms open wide.

Blows My Mind 6

A Scripture that blows my mind- Matthew 7:22-23

“Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?’ Then I (Jesus) will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'”

Its a bit humbling to know that even the people that Jesus will kick out of the Kingdom have done such things as I have never experienced.

Blows My Mind 5

I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father.

John 14:12 NIV

Greater than walking on water, healing the sick, feeding multitudes, blind receiving sight, lame walking, demons fleeing, raising people from the dead etc.? Sign me up.

Yes, another Scripture that blows my mind.

-Brian

Blows My Mind 4

“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
“Come,” he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.

Another passage I can read a million times and still be blown away. I think its remarkable that Peter pretty much invited himself to Jesus’ party on the water. Jesus didn’t say, “No Peter, only us holy people can be out here.” No veil with Jesus, no separation, we are only limited by the desires of our heart.

Blows My Mind 3

I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him.

Mark 11:23

I can read this a million times and still be blown away. I’m taking this as a “for real” mountain, not just the figurative ones we like to use this passage for. Mainly because a “for real” mountain beats a “figurative” mountain any day.

-Brian